Our love was made for movie screens

Another one of those days where I wake up early just to find it impossible to fall back asleep. I hate mornings like this. On the upside though, I hear noises from the one I hold so dearly to my heart. We talked a bit today, and that's a good thing because he usually pushes me away before I get to say anything. Furby's here as well, and being absolutely annoying today. No wonder he hates sleeping with her. She doesn't stop moving, even when I tell her to. I'm not sure whether it's because she doesn't understand or because she doesn't care.

I haven't been blogging much recently, and I know I say that every single time I blog. Thankful that a morning like this can bring back old habits. A good old habit, that's the best part. My brother said that the reason why I can't go back to sleep right now is probably because I had too much to drink last night, and that's probably right. But I've been cutting down on my beer intake and that's because I've been gaining weight like mad. Not something to be proud of at all.

Recent update is that I found out I can't stay in Melbourne if I don't have half a million dollars and that's quite saddening because the three years I've spent here goes to waste. Mom and dad is a bit disappointed about that as well but I guess it's good to establish the fact that Australia is not the only country in the world that offers a good life.

Life in general has been... hm, indescribable. I'm confused about a lot of things. One being love and another career. These two definitely take the top spots. I haven't found a way around the problems I'm facing but it's okay, the weight isn't heavy enough to kill me. I'm glad about that.

This feeling I'm feeling now is a good feeling, especially for a morning like this. I just got my timetable for my last semester in RMIT done at 8 and I've got Fridays off! I didn't get it the previous semester so this definitely gives me a reason to celebrate. And then there's this person who treats me well, but is a complete lost soul about what he wants. Or needs. I'm not sure who this favour is for, but I'm definitely doing one of us a favour in taking things as they come and accepting not knowing what comes next. That's one thing I never do. I always need life planned out beforehand. Lame as, I know.

I was so stressed up about what this is when it first started off and even more when it ended. We got closer though, after things ended. It wasn't clean of course, because we connected so many dots when we had no official connection. It's hard to explain, and I know I'm being really vague here. But I have no choice. The feelings I've been feeling and am still feeling are both vague as hell. I can't say I mind though.

I'm learning to live in the moment any way.

And this is definitely good practice for me.

If you're ever reading this, I just wanted to say that I am completely head over heels for you.

Just like I was when I first met you.

Never less, but maybe more.

xx