Christmas-sy

 

A little Christmassy day today for those of us at Star. There's plenty of food but only a minority of whole-heartedly dressed up people (some maybe on accident!). I'd unintentionally won myself a box of Werther's Original treats, soon to be indulged in when i'm finally off work. I can barely imagine what they're going to taste like so i've put expectations aside to prevent all forms of disappointment.

I've made the dumbest mistake this week. I'd forgot to inform my editors on the submission of my story two days ago, leading to the dismissal of my story for this week and forever (due to its need for timeliness). I have only myself to blame :(

Things are looking up recently. Work isn't so bad anymore and i think it's all about being unaffected by the nonsense that goes and comes around, keeping your chin up and ignoring the negativities it has to offer. I haven't been the kind to instill positivity, but if i had to choose a moment to exude such behaviour, it would probably be now (at work). 

Much has changed since i'd last blogged and that hasn't surprised me one bit. Big change, no surprise. Strange, isn't it (in my case at least)? Well, maybe because i'm partially psychic. It must be all the practice i've been getting from the 20 years of life i was forced to live through :) Now i somehow see how it would pay off.

The change.. What is it, you must be wondering. I'm honestly not very interested in having a session of confessions and what not but i might share just the gist of it. I've just realised that i am complicated in an entirely different level. This is going to sound a little self-absorbed but a lot of things are a tad too slow for me. Do you feel that when you're speaking to a dumb person, he/she downsizes your intelligence capacity? Yeah, that's how i feel when i talk to certain people. I'm not at all saying i'm smart. I'm just trying to say that the people who claim they are.. They're probably delusional. I can't help them open their eyes to something we call reality, and that saddens me most.

I've got another problem. I have a fucking huge problem with people who blame others for their own shortcomings (in my time at Star, i've learned that's actually called bullying). Yes, these verbally abusive people. I can't put a finger on why people do these things but it goes along the lines of satisfaction. It's just disgusting how people find comfort in harrassing someone. I might have been there before, some time somewhere in my miserable life. But not recently, and not anytime soon.

Unless that son of a bitch tries to play a silly game again.

Nice try, mthrfckr! :)

Better luck next time.

xx